The uneventful life of a ginger

Hello again readers! So todays blog going to be short and sweet as I'm at work soon for night shifts, If you read my post on the 28th you will have seen a little comment about someone screen shooting my blog and causing some well issues. While I know I am writing this on the very public internet and I actively encourage this to be shared I am slightly disappointed that it would be screen shot and sent way out of context to cause issues, now I'm not mad about it but if people have an issues with what I written I am very open for them to come forward and talk to me about it! I am purposely vague on details to protect others anonymity! that is important yes there are people who will know things they are trusted friends but other that know from other sources please feel free to message me about things I am an honest person I will answer anything honestly there is no need to resort to screen shots this is public! Now I would like to know...

Hey again readers So it's that time again, allergy season is among us... so far I am just sneezing more than usual, I hope this year it wont be so bad as my hay fever has been dropping off but we will see this year. I only have 2 allergies cats & hay fever, there not like they will kill me type allergy's but cats effect my breathing and make me wheezy and makes my eyes itch/swell slightly but hay fever is just the absolute worse. Oh. My. God. If you suffer from hey fever you know what I mean, watery itchy eyes to hell, runny nose constant sneezing which triggers my asthma its just pure hell, but last year it only lasted 2 weeks and it was quite mild so hopefully this year I wont need many pills! Sorry for the quite short abrupt post today I've been a bit up and down last couple of days as well having some personal things to sort out, my minds just constantly questioning things and and wanting to know what I need to do to fix things, but overall mentally I am in a much...

Hello everyone! So to start side note, who ever wants to screenshot my blog and cause issues pop up and ill just send you a copy next time, if your brave enough? So todays blog after having a call with a friend kinda got me thinking about this one. About how bad it is to bottle up and store your emotions and problems, for as long as I can remember I've always done this, always bottled up what am feeling and what's going on in my life weather it be good or bad, the past few months have been no exception but I've basically got that bottle and chucked a Mentos mint in and let it explode and what a bang its been! Its been so messy! I guess what am trying to say is don't bottle it, I will probably start doing it again you know old habits die hard but this blog has really helped me open up and the support has been unreal, yes but the little note at the top I've had an issue but then your writing on a public platform people with always troll or misconstrued what's bein...

Hello again! My apologies its been a few days, its been a strange time in all honesty, mainly been delayed due to being on nights! but now am on my days off! Honestly there I have so many ideas for posts, there is one big post I want to write but i need to get my self together for that one a bit as it will be a deep one. Todays blog I wanted to write about space I guess, you know when you look up at the night sky see the moon, the stars and the vast blackness and wonder... What is beyond... are we alone in the universe? I don't believe we are I believe even in out own galaxy there are other forms of life we are just hitting barriers in technology and our own life spans to be able to explore. Do you ever see pictures that deep space telescopes have taken or watch the steams of Space X's achievements and there launches to the ISS and wish you could be there! Wish you could join them in the stars. I do. When I see p ictures of oth...

Hello Again! So todays blog is going to be a bit short but sweet I guess, all that's been going through my mind today is I want to say stupid but there not to me questions, I'm still pretty content but i just cant stop my self asking the same questions over and over, to do with people I've pushed away. I don't know if they are reading my blog, at this point I don't care I guess, but I cant stop asking myself what if, why did I do that, why am I so stupid, will they ever forgive me. Its stupid but how can I put it simply... I miss them... They became such an important part of my life in such a short span of time but it still sucks, this is one of those things where I guess only time will tell if time will help heal, if they reach out I will be happy but I have learnt from my drastic mistakes and things will not be repeated. if not then... Well I don't know... I know I make this blog a lot about...

Hello again reader's! So as the title suggests I am slowly getting back to a state of stability within my self, I guess this is due to a number of reasons, some thing I have cut out myself others have been taken away even if that's not what I wanted its kind of helped, I hope once i become content again these will return but who knows! Writing this blog has helped a lot! I suggest it to anyone struggling! there are a few thoughts and things that have happened recently I want to talk about, its just wording it and weather its the right thing to post. Currently am just sat here looking at this empty space listening to Lo-fi on Spotify wondering what to do next with my life, where I want or need to take it, all I know is owning my own house is going to be one of the first things I do! Exciting times! the other is I guess finding someone to share my journey with! There is lots I want to do and see! especially since I want to do a lot more  walkin...

Hello again! So I am late with now yesterdays blog but better late than never! So today while chilling with the best friends I came the realisation that I am so grateful for the friends I have. In my recent issues with my mental health my best friends have been my rocks! and not only them but the my other friends as well, I though I had no one to turn to but as it turned out I have more than I thought! And its honestly been amazing! I am what you would call a people pleaser... I will literally put others needs before my own and I always will, mainly because I don't really have anything to stress over I guess so I can quite easily handle what ever problems anyone wants to talk about, rant, cry about I will always be there for them and try my best to help! and I never ask for anything in return. With recent events where I have bottled a lot of stress and anxiety and problems its been me! Who's needed that shoulder to just talk to, which is very strange normally I can handle...

Hello again! Well todays been a strange one, just felt off like am missing something... I cant really explain it if am honest... I know what I am missing but that's for another post. What I've realised lately is that music helps so much or it does to me, a good deep song can just seem to speak to your soul, currently my favourite artist is London Grammar, but I have been listing to so many different genres and artists lately! i will put a link to my mess of a Spotify playlist somewhere if you wanted a nosey! Sometime when I just feel stuck i just go chill, headphone on and listen to music. (For those interested i use Arctis Pro wireless headphones). Been very into Lo-Fi lately it specially Lo-Fi remixes of songs you wouldn't expect and they are so chill it just sooths my mind and i get lost in transition of thoughts i let the music lead my thoughts and just follow! it just helps so much! Always open to suggestions on songs i listen to almost ...

Hello again! So where do i start today. I suppose having a currently broken mind is strange, i struggle to concentrate on things currently, even gaming, the only 2 things distracting me currently are going on long walks and work. Keeping busy at work has been key. I hope to go on a walk somewhere on my 4 days off, i currently do not know how to fix my mind. I keep thinking about so much. But its all random useless shit. The only thing that constantly pops up is one person. Mainly because i know what I've done and the unrepairable damaged I've done being selfish. And only thinking of myself and what's best for me, honestly this is out of character for me as i am a people pleaser i want others to be happy over my own happiness no matter the cost. But this time I've screwed up being the opposite, yes i am sad about it, yes i will miss them but maybe its for the best maybe while my mind is in this fragile state it might be what's for the best, hopefully in time things w...

 Hello again! If you made it past my first boring post well this one might be a long one for you! So as a few friends know lately i have gone through a very tough time mentally, I've bottled things up for so long and with a lot of stress and anxiety i have faced lately it all came to a head, i always thought my mind was un breakable like a diamond but oh how this diamond was flawed apparently, i just lost it all. felt like i had no one. but with the help of my best friend especially i have managed to open up a lot and talk about things which has helped massively and thank you to the friend who suggested i start a blog to help get my thoughts out! I have gone through a lot in the last few months, dealing with a lot of emotions i didn't know i had if i am honest, from sadness and feeling alone to being content as anything and being happy! but as with anything these emotions have basically spun on a penny and have changed rapidly. Recently i got myself into a huge ...

Hey, Welcome to my blog! My name is Chris but you can call me Fleggy. I've create this blog to help myself really, been going through a tough patch mentally to say the least, thankfully i have had a small group of friends who have been there for me and although there are things out of my control i have been trying my best to get myself back. A little bit about me. As you can tell by the title i am ginger, very proud to be haha, i am just you average 30+ year old who works at a steelworks which can have its moments of excitement but its very hot very sweaty (especially in summer) work! but i enjoy it! I have recently found a like for reading thanks to a friend telling me Kindles can invert page colours! never thought i could sit and read a book but here we are! I also love to game, i have a lot of games i love to play! the list in endless. Recently i have wanted to start walking and the small ones i have been on i have enjoyed i just need a walking buddy! Lastly i LOVE to ...