Looking up at the stars

Hello again!

My apologies its been a few days, its been a strange time in all honesty, mainly been delayed due to being on nights! but now am on my days off!

Honestly there I have so many ideas for posts, there is one big post I want to write but i need to get my self together for that one a bit as it will be a deep one.

Todays blog I wanted to write about space I guess, you know when you look up at the night sky see the moon, the stars and the vast blackness and wonder... What is beyond... are we alone in the universe? I don't believe we are I believe even in out own galaxy there are other forms of life we are just hitting barriers in technology and our own life spans to be able to explore.

Do you ever see pictures that deep space telescopes have taken or watch the steams of Space X's achievements and there launches to the ISS and wish you could be there! Wish you could join them in the stars. I do. When I see pictures of other galaxies and and solar systems and you see the just amazing colours out cosmos can create and we are just touching on a fraction of our universe, the thought of being able to glide through the emptiness and see it with your own eyes would be just mindbogglingly amazing if I'm honest. You know kind of like in movies I guess.

I don't believe we are alone in the universe. its far too big to be alone. what is out there I don't know, Do i believe in ufos? ehhh... Kind of... There are things happen I've seen with my own eyes which cant be explained. but why would they come to this dump hole of a planet haha. But i am a massive sceptic until I either see it my self or there is undoubtedly no proof its not real. that goes for ghosts, monsters etc...

It would be awesome to own a telescope and a decent camera to be able to take my own night sky pictures or even to go somewhere with someone find the darkest place we could and just chill and be able to see the stars clearly.

Todays blog hasn't gone exactly to plan but its not far off, I've had ALOT on my mind to be quite honest, I was pretty clear minded for a few days then this last couple of days BOOM its just hit me like a ton of bricks, just all this self doubt and over thinking again, even just before I started writing this I had this massive wave of ultimate sadness hit me for no reason then it just went, I wish I knew why. I also do need to get something off my mind which just wont leave, its just always there. But unfortunately only 2 people know exactly what it is and i am not ready to share that yet.

I will end this now before I get to far dissolved into a tangent and it gets too long!

Again thank you to everyone reading this! am surprised I get the views I do! Means a lot!

Chris