Pain...

Hello Readers!

So its been nearly a week since my last post I might go to weekly to be honest, So a lot has happened since I last posted am almost ready to move back in with the parent's and it is for a reason it's so I can actually save for a mortgage and buy my own house if I didn't while paying rent and stuff ide have no chance so it was my only option really.

Mentally I feel about 95% back to my old self their are a few things I need to work on and when I was at my GP I asked help with this so we will see how that goes, I've been very very reluctant to do it or even ask but I guess it's time, I need to do it finally feel 100% in my mind again.

On another note, some of you may know some of you wont for a while I get head aches a lot and they have never really bothered me much, but the last few months they have got worse and worse and the last month they are that bad that even pain killers haven't touched it, best way to describe it is like their is a plate in the middle of my head and its trying to pull my head apart from the centre out, lately it hurts my eye and even down my cheeks, now I've been to the doctor few times and now I am waiting on an MRI scan and to see an Ophthalmologists because the doctor I saw had to get a second opinion because of problems they see with the movement in my eyes I didn't quite understand too much if I am honest, just the fact that its in both eyes witch is good, but also very bad? hopefully it is nothing we will see in 2 weeks hopefully, Just want these head pains to go away I can tolerate high levels of pain but these are getting insane and it's random when they happen or for how long.

Today is the first day in a few days where I can feel the twinge of a head pain but its not come out yet hopefully it doesn't, I just cant be bothered with it today haha. I guess if this does equate to something it could explain my rash change in emotional state? But I guess not because I feel almost back except from the odd time where I just sit there and get this wave of sadness hit me from no where like ultimate sadness, then it just disappears. I don't know its random.

But once they have sorted my head then they can look at my bloody blood pressure because since I first went to the doctors I've had to record and check my blood pressure daily because its high often along with my heart rate but they wont sort that till they know what's going on in my head one thing at a time!

I know a bit of a long winded personal post but its been a week.

Thanks for reading people!

Ill keep you updated as and when I can on what's going on!

Chris